Dear Reader Vol. 2

I did it. I got a new job and I’m sticking with it.

I’m still annoyed at how difficult growing up has been, but I think I’m starting to get the hang of things.

I have a routine I’ve started, but it has its flaws. For instance, I haven’t worked out in a week. I’m too busy catching up on old chores and making lists. 

Chore charts, calendars, and to-do lists are the backbone of my sanity these days.

I still don’t want to get out of bed most days. There’s so much to do and so little time before work. I miss college.

I do have a cleaner apartment AND I do eat more home-cooked meals. God bless my soon to be wife. So I guess I’m getting healthier in some ways.

Only thing that sucks ass is that I’m still limited on time. I haven’t worked out much because of it. I only write, read, or do things I care about on my lunch break (thanks to my little free time). And I can only see family and friends on the weekends.

When did life get so lonely?

I barely even see my own fiance these days. How wack.

I love coming home to her though. Even though it’s 1am and I feel a twinge of guilt when I have to wake her from her peaceful sleep. She’s always lying there, tiktoks still sounding from her phone on loop,, with our dog in her arms. It’s a sight to see.

What’s the point of this reader? Have I made any progress?

I think so.

Things are getting better. I have stable income, a regular schedule, and I’m doing about 15% of my to-do list (progress). But I’m still stuck as to how I’m going to do all of this and more in the future.

How will I be a successful writer? What will have to change for me to be able to do that? How the hell am I supposed to raise kids when I’m scraping by on time and money as it is?

On that note: my respect for blue collar parents goes up more and more with each passing day.

Will life offer me more someday? If so,, how do I get there ASAP?

I could ponder all of this day in and day out, but I don’t have the time.

For now I’ll try to progress a little more each day. Get into a routine and a flow. Then, hopefully, someday, I’ll figure out how to be a functional working professional while also being a healthy person, good friend, financially stable, and clean. I’ll have lots of functional hobbies and kids to share them with.

I bet it’d be a lot easier if I were rich but… I’m not getting into that right now.

Until next time,

Your lovely writer is going to clock back into work.

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