It’s 10am and I’m stuck in bed.

I can’t get this feeling out of my head.

All I have is existential dread.

My mental thoughts are left on read.

I brush my teeth when I have the will.

Standing by my bed and swallowing a pill.

Looking at my texts and doing the drill.

Not a moment in sight that gives me thrill.

It’s 10:30am and no one’s here.

The house is empty and the coast is clear.

Maybe I should kickback with a beer.

So I don’t have to face all of my fear.

Maybe I’ll pay the bills or do the dishes.

Forget about my nighttime wishes.

I’ll do this on repeat til I swim with the fishes.

The only good part is cleaning after the missus.

It’s 12pm and I’m behind.

There’s goes my dream of the grind.

After all I’m ready to unwind.

What happened to my positive mind?

Oh no I rested too long.

Now there’s no time to finish my song.

Once again I did it all wrong.

This is why I don’t belong.

It’s 3pm and I need to make money.

Where are you going my honey bunny?

I have a story for you and it’s very funny.

Sorry I need to prove myself while it’s still sunny.

No time to workout.

I’m useless it turns out.

I’m full of doubt.

And now I’m burnt out.

It’s 8pm and I need to eat again.

Maybe I can do that with a friend.

I don’t have money so let’s not pretend.

There’s no good way that that could end.

Takeout it is.

What do you want Ms.?

I don’t know she says.

How about something with fizz?

It’s 11pm and I should be in bed.

Instead I’m watching TV while the pets get fed.

I scroll through the messages that I’ve left on read.

All I have is existential dread.

Night night we say.

It’s been a hell of a day.

I can’t keep going this way.

But I have to stay.

Do you my love? She says in a whisper.

I sure hope not. And then I kiss her.

Poem written by Leeann Diaz